i've been really down recently. & little things can really make me very emo.

I've finally plucked up enough courage to do it and checked up her fb profile after these 5 months. Browsed through every single photo and I really don't know how to describe my feelings right now. I felt sad that I couldn't be part of her life cause I cannot deny the fact that she was once a really important person in my life. But on the other hand I felt really angry and disappointed that after going through so much with her, our friendship could be so vulnerable that it just snapped. All that i had done and maybe afterall it was just me struggling to maintain this friendship all along.

But right now, i know she's doing really well and I am happy for her. both of us are really in two different worlds now. Not intercepting at all, two parallel lines.

So many things kept running through my mind but min just kicked me out of all these shit thinkings.

Blinded*-* says:
i can onli say its already over between u and her


yupp. Wake up & move on.
This had being a load on my mind for half a year already. I don't know why i am still so bothered by it and maybe it is because I'm still having this foolish thinking that she will actually turn back.

its over (:


I will really put this heavy load down after today.
bye bye my friend, bye rain jie jie.