i've been really down recently. & little things can really make me very emo.

I've finally plucked up enough courage to do it and checked up her fb profile after these 5 months. Browsed through every single photo and I really don't know how to describe my feelings right now. I felt sad that I couldn't be part of her life cause I cannot deny the fact that she was once a really important person in my life. But on the other hand I felt really angry and disappointed that after going through so much with her, our friendship could be so vulnerable that it just snapped. All that i had done and maybe afterall it was just me struggling to maintain this friendship all along.

But right now, i know she's doing really well and I am happy for her. both of us are really in two different worlds now. Not intercepting at all, two parallel lines.

So many things kept running through my mind but min just kicked me out of all these shit thinkings.

Blinded*-* says:
i can onli say its already over between u and her


yupp. Wake up & move on.
This had being a load on my mind for half a year already. I don't know why i am still so bothered by it and maybe it is because I'm still having this foolish thinking that she will actually turn back.

its over (:


I will really put this heavy load down after today.
bye bye my friend, bye rain jie jie.

my loves (:

A fruitful long weekend spent with papi ,mummy and of cause my baby.
Ate, drank and played! This is life seriously!

As usual, our MS bear catching session and we caught two walking+singing stitch! DAMN CUTE PLS!
Buffet at our fav sukiya and had starbucks green tea! nom nom nom.
Drinking at LOOF with love and baby got drunk after 6 glasses of drinks.
really tried many drinks which i had not tried before! most of them sucks and sometimes i wonder why do we like to torture ourselves by filling our precious tummy with it rather than other awesome food or drinks. AND they are expensive.
but the pizza was nice though!
(:
nothing beats spending the entire weekend with my love ones. no stunts no fights!

Marina bay sands!
pretty but seriously there's nothing to do there if u are not gonna gamble
short of my lil sis or else it will be a perfect family photo.
All of us looking great too! esp me! HAHAHHA I LOOKED SLIM!

LASTLY!
I here to show off my presents! (:
teeeheee.

A sweet citigems necklace from kris's mummy and aunt (:
Love it and im wearing it now.

My first watch!
& present from baby! (:
D&G
had a hard hard time choosing between this and ted baker's.

I'mma happy girl!
Going facial with min tmr! yay. gotta clear the ugly pimples from my face.
my bday's just around the corner. ):
havent done any preparations yet. so dead and i seriously don't know where to start.
HELP!

xueting <3
She is only slightly taller than the table tennis table! (: cute lil thing!
see how messy her hair was! haha. i kept telling her that it was messy and she tried very hard to make it neater but still fail!
ok im starting to miss coaching them! one more month of holidays for them!

omg i slept at 4 last night and i'm up at 12 all thanks to my not so considerate mum. omg.
I am so tired! I think it is for sleeping too much the day before.

today's thursday! baby's out! (: (:
can't wait for tmr! yayyyyyyy!

ok i'm back prison breaking. damn exciting pls!
my heart skipped like 4000 beats.

i am so so demotivated! ): I really have no idea what i should be doing.

i woke up at nearly 2pm! LOL. am i pro or what?

sometimes its kinda true that leopards doesn't change its spots. lol!

just a random thought!

I AM SO DEAD TIRED!
Went for 4 sessions of trg! I am still very fit lo pls! i'm like a professional paddler now pls! i train more than my sis sometimes! HAHAHAH.

I gonna be out of job soon cause the june holiday is here ): that's the bad thing about working with kids. they holiday = u no money. ):

HANG ON FYNN! one more day! (:

my weekend just flew past and it was seriously way too short. ): didn't have enough time with love. Life is so meaningless now and i need some motivation! Well i guess it all depends on my uni admission before i can decide what to do with my life. I'm doing some research on signing on as a SAF regular ( i think they call themselves that ) and baby thinks i'm out of my mind. lol. But seriously i think its a good idea if i can't get into uni. lol! Its a government job afterall and at least I have trainings to look forward to. right? why didn't i think of this earlier and maybe i'll be booking in with my precious now. ): regretting like mad.

Anyway i took out my navel piercing alrdy ): didn't literally take it out but the stud came out while i was playing with it and now its like a big hole there so i can't put it back anymore. ): but its alright. It simply means that i should get something new. Jiu de bu qu, xin de bu lai right? heh heh.

OKAY We went bear catching again and lady luck was on our side! spent 20bucks and I got 5 super uber cute bears! thanks love!
I HAVE A NEW STITCH! A damn fat one and i love it to the max! Its an obese stitch lo! omg.
Went drinking at Aces Club, just the two of us <3
great quality time spent but still, not enough.

oh and i saw yusiang too. he's much better looking now! his hair looks normal, at least they are not curling up and he's more build up now and tan! Y S Chay! (:

Monday tmr ): Dread it.
start of my boring work week.

happy 17th monthsary baby!

but u left me out here alone to celebrate this special day ):

Was laughing my head off at xiaxue's entries!

& there's this contest which Huimin should join. The Essential Hair Product contest which u have to send in the photo of your damage hair and the winner gets a makeover for their hair. No doubt huimin will win it. confirm plus chop. cause her hair looks like mane rather than hair. omg.

i've fully recovered after a round of mj! (:
& im hungry. I wanna eat good food but im so broke! ):

baby will be out on sat instead of fri ): so i've gotten myself 2 new movies while waiting!


mum's telling me how messed up my poly life was. blah blah blah. irritating. but kinda true though. made enemies here and there. lots of troubles and all. but overall, its still a wonderful journey which not only gave me a wonderful gf <3 and it also made me cherish my lovely bffs alot more! (:
So what's with all the your grades are so damn bad mum! its better than seeing me jump down ur house right? hahaha!

Still, imma happy girl (:

I'm down with fever and flu. so here i am stuck at home. ):
Watched backup plan and its really nice! (: now I'm halfway through bounty hunter. Kinda boring.
But it is definitely better than staring at my hotel city.

went a&e with baby ystdy night. Sounded Damn serious right? Haha. Cause we thought she had h1n1 and she was Damn sick. But her report shows that she was fine and doctor says she should go to the dental instead cause she kept complaining bout her toothache. Lol!
But now I'm the one having flu :( oh no.

I have to seriously start inviting ppl for my chalet! later nobody come how! Lol.

total bad mood recently.
r/s is in a mess and we quarrel almost everyday. its kinda like a routine to us and its super irritating cause i will really have no mood for anything.

I don't know whether its a stage for all r/s or just ours cause why should we even have all these irritating fights which worsen our r/s.

fuck it la seriously.


back to hotel city and uzap. lol.

): sent my sick baby back to camp alrdy ):

quarreled on the first day she was back. kinda guilty but we're better after the fight. hopefully. baby slimmed down, with more arm muscles and damn tan now. hahaha. and she looked smart in her number 4 too! (:

work tmr. sucks cause i have to drive down early in the morning to liu's house to get the keys for the cupboard. ):

shopping with darling yishi! (: bought a shirt from f21 at 10 dollars lesser than the original price cause the cashier keyed in the wrong amount! AHAHAHAH.


IM MEETING BABY IN 2 HOURS TIME! OMGGGGGGGGGGGG! (: (: (:

i can cook delicious crabs (:

omg prison break! my heart is jumping out. omg.

maybe i should come out with a plan too. tekong break. lol.

3 days (:

my sis is scary. lol! ystdy night i saw her carrying the heavy rectangular table effortlessly while holding a pen on one hand! LOL. i stared at her and even she laughed at herself! HAHAHA.

I AM SO BORED AT HOME!
Queued for 2.5hours at ICA for my passport! omg. Its crazy!
Went town with my mum. hahahhaha.
Bought her a bonia wallet for mothers day!

thats all. super lazy to blog. BYE.

omg. so bored! wanted to study TOGETHER with mdm lee cynli at starbucks but she said i would be disturbing her instead! haha. so im stuck at home!

ANYWAY!
Ate a flower crab today! literally ONE WHOLE CRAB! It was damn nice! baby's aunt cooked it! super yum!

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I cooked delicious CEREAL PRAWNS FOR FAMILY! hahaha!
Learned from baby's aunt too! ITS VERY NICE! I will cook for my darlings if u all request and willing to wash up the pot and dishes! hahah! i hate washing up! ):

NOTHING ON TMR! SIAN! HOW! SOME KIND SOULS JIO ME FOR MJ PLS?!

i miss my baby ALOT ALOT ALOT!
My daily routine is to stare right at my phone from 930 onwards till sweetheart calls and read my letter after that! ):

NO I DONT LIKE IT AT ALL! IT SUCKS. TOTALLY!