I'm back from work and facial!

Went for supposedly the trial 18bucks facial but paid for the 50bucks one instead. GRRRR. Simply don't know how to reject lah. But clever me did not sign the package though cause I find their service super duper slow and the didn't do a good job anyway, so not really worth the money.

I'M SOOOOOOO TIRED. GOING TO BED SOON! (:
SCHOOL TMR! Bring your thermometers people!

Had a good talk with gf and realised that afterall, I was not what she expected and maybe she wasn't what I want too. Though she's truly a great gf, she gave me everything I wanted or requested for. But there's one thing which from the start she could not give, security. This is what I needed which i think most girls look for the most in a relationship. However over the past 7 months, i was paranoid almost everyday and been sensitive towards almost everything. I always wonder why I don't feel the stress or insecurity in the previous few relationships i had. I always felt that I was their only one and they gave me all the attention i needed. Maybe I was too demanding and unreasonable in certain ways but no matter what, deep inside I can feel that I hold a special position in their heart. why can't i feel the same way in this relationship? Am i supposed to change myself in order to fit nicely to her lifestyle and her way of dealing things? I feel that tons of reasons/ excuses shot at me whenever anything happened and I will be made/tamed to understand and feel for her. Reasons to why she did this and her regular phrase would be that she thought that i could understand.
I don't know how long can I take this and I starting to really give up the hopes I once had about this relationship. It's just too hard to always spare a thought for not only her, but all the things she gets herself involved in. I'm truly drained out.