wtf.im serious pissed with the dickless fcking HIM.you all should know who im refering to.wtf.i dont care whether u all are thinking that im selfish or what so ever.im not gonna say a single word of apology to that asshole.if you adults demand for one.fine.i will do as im told but it will certainly not be a sincere one.
although she[ps:im not against you.i care for you.] cried but wasnt really guilty as i felt a hundred times the pain when they killed me last year.the old enthu , full of passion abt tt and the girl who once hoped that she can be the next li jia wei was gone.she was killed or rather murdered by you.yes you!nothing can be the same again and i can nv become the same old goodie girl that u once knew.
not only did you put out the burning passion in me and u slapped me out of my dreams.thank you for that tight slap and now im awake.u made me realised the hard core reality that nothing in the world is fair. thank you for reminding me about that.
i had worked my ass out to get what i wanted and to prove that im good enough.but what i get was a whole truck of bullshit from you.telling me to try harder next time.all i wanted was just support and encouragement, a helping hand to fan and fuel the passion in me.but u didnt.not only did u burn out my fire, u swept away the ashes not leaving any sparks behind for me to stand up again.the old me was gone,thoroughly gone.
imagine the deep pain i had but the little encouragment from u was never heard.on the other hand all of u are pointing your fingers at me thinking that im just this spoilt kid throwing my temper around!childishly demanding for your sympathy and wanting an acceptable answer.but ive only a question in mind, why me?!i was refered as the kid who dont understand the situation you are in and the RISKS which you had taken for me.but what about the pain i'd felt?hey people im a living human being too.
you broke my heart in bits and pieces and now dont blame me for being heartless.7 years of my hardwork and sweat into tt.do u think i dun wanna get to the top?you are always thinking on your side that my ignorant attitude towards you pains you.try thinking for me will you?get the point clear.are you begging me to understand you or am i begging you to save me from the plight im in now?
maybe u will think that running away is not the way to solve this but i dun wanna rake up the past.its too painful for me to look into the darkest side of my heart.i'd walked out of it and i dun wanna look back into it again.please leave me alone.
the scar will never leave me, it never will.


i wanna be an ostrich and stuck my head into the ground.not hearing and seeing anything.thats how i want it to be.im a loser.what can u do?